Memories of 2009: The Last Waltz

My late father have been using his handphone for a year.I remember the last song that my late father requested from me to be store in his handphone. It was 'The Last Waltz by Engelbert Humperdinck'.To me it was a beautiful song when the first time I heard it.But I never thought that it was truly his last waltz with his family.




The Last Waltz

I wondered should I go or should I stay,
the band had only one more song to play.
And then I saw you out the corner of my eye,
a little girl, alone and so shy.
I had the last waltz with you,
two lonely people together.
I fell in love with you,
the last waltz should last forever.
But the love we had was going strong,
through the good and bad we get along.
And then the flame of love died in your eye,
my heart was broke in two when you said goodbye.
I had the last waltz with you...
It's all over now, nothing left to say,
just my tears and the orchestra playing.
La la la la la la la la la,
la la la la la la la la la.
I had the last waltz with you...
La la la la la la la la la.

Even it's called 'The Last Waltz',it will always live on inside of me in memories of my late father

Memories of 2009

On the Friday morning of 10th July 2009, I lost my beloved father after months battling bone cancer. I was there at the hospital, knowing that his time will come. I prayed to Allah if I was going to lose my father, I hope it will be on Friday. Allah answered my prayer and my father has his last breath after the azan for Subuh prayer.
To be honest I wasn’t very close with my late father during his lifetime but to me he was more than a father. He was a teacher, who teaches everything he could from medical, carpentry, electrical basic, engines, agriculture & Islamic studies to his sons. And all his knowledge’s come from his reading & experience. He shows me the beauty of reading and seeking new knowledge. I learn the art of calligraphy from him and to me he was the most skillful calligrapher I always remember. He was a father who always planned ahead for what he want to do and that how he raised his sons, to know and identify what the future hold.
I shared the same interest with my father in many ways. We love to listen to the songs from the 50s & 60s together & having Nescafe when listening to our favourite Keroncong tunes. We love the kampong life even though we live in the heart of Johor Bahru. He teaches his sons the values of taking care the family members & that how me & my 2 younger brothers will always remember: taking care each other & our mother.
2009 also left me with another sad moment when I lost my beloved grandmother on 15th January & now what left for me is my mother. To me this three people are what I treasured most.

And what I can do for my beloved father & grandmother is always recite Al-Fatihah & pray that Allah will bless their soul.

Amin...

One of my first sketch of Nuur Aida Syakira

Nuur Aida Syakira was my first comics that I wrote few years back in the year 2000. It's a story how friendship sometimes is the biggest love of all.This is how it goes:

Perjalanan hidup sebagai manusia kadang-kala mengembirakan dan kadang-kala memeritkan. Apatah lagi sebagai seorang remaja. Mengharungi kehidupan yang penuh dengan dugaan dan cabaran. Namun itulah erti menjalani liku-liku kehidupan. Banyak perkara yang perlu difikirkan dalam kehidupan sebagai remaja, dari masalah kerjaya dimasa hadapan ke masalah cinta yang akan dialami. Tapi masalah-masalah ini akan amat penting dalam mempersiapkan seseorang itu ke alam dewasa. Pancaroba kehidupan apabila bergelar dewasa akan mempertemukan kita dengan teman yang sentiasa ada, iaitu mengenal erti tanggungjawab. Tetapi jika ada masalah, luahkan jangan disimpan. Jika disimpan akan membebankan jiwa. Kalau boleh luahkan pada seseorang insan yang memahami. Kita tidak akan tahu di mana dan bila seorang insan yang memahami itu akan muncul ketika kita dilanda masalah.

Pernahkah melihat cinta di balik tabir? Cinta yang berputik dari perkenalan tidak kenal rupa. Dari jauh berkenalan hanya suara kedengaran. Bermesra tanpa mengenal siapa dirinya. Tanpa tahu cantik atau burukkah dia. Tanpa kemesraan terjalin dari berpegang tangan. Tapi keikhlasan tiba-tiba muncul. Keakraban berputik hari demi hari. Tanpa cinta di balik tabir, hati mula resah. Sekali terdengar suara, berdegup jantung bagaikan guruh melanda. Cinta tiba-tiba mekar dari biasa. Hati timbul sayang teramat sangat. Si dia muncul dalam suara. Selama ini berdakapan dalam mimpi ingin bertemu. Tetapi dalam kerinduan itu adakalanya mendatangkan keresahan. Kebimbangan ini wujud akibat hadirnya rasa curiga pada cinta di balik tabir. Jika si dia tidak mahu bersua muka, nyatalah selama ini dia telah menipu. Jika dia ingin benar berjumpa....nyatalah selama ini dia telah berlaku jujur. Berkenalan di balik tabir ingin bersua muka rasa serba-salah pula. Banyak bermain di benak fikiran. Salah satu darinya ialah sudikah si dia menerima rupa paras dirinya? Tapi ... jika ini bertitik tolak dengan nilai persahabatan, wajarkah rupa paras diambil kira? Apabila ditakdirkan bertemu juga, cinta dibalik tabir telah tersingkap. Mata bertemu mata. Akhirnya yang dilindungi selama ini telah terserlah. Mengukuhkan lagi apa yang telah dipupuk ketika di balik tabir. Hidup berpasangan memang menjadi impian setiap manusia. Tapi ada diantara mereka tidak bernasib baik. Tapi sebenarnya dalam setiap antara kita sememangnya sudah ditakdirkan bersama. Siapakah itu? Bila sampai masanya...kita akan tahu.

Mungkin benar kata orang, persahabatan itu kadang-kala lebih indah dari percintaan. Berkawan adalah lebih baik dari bercinta. Namun tidak semua orang sedari, yang persahabatan itu satu percintaan. Dimana ia lebih hebat daripada percintaan yang sebenar. Hati manusia mudah berubah tapi apa yang dicari mungkin akan ditemui dalam sebuah persahabatan. Kadang-kala kita terpaksa menunggu untuk mendapatkan cinta. Mungkin ia memeningkan kepala tetapi biarlah ia berlalu dan percayalah satu hari nanti akan datang cinta yang dicari itu.

Cinta itu fitrah kita, siapalah yang tiada perasaan hendak bercinta. Cinta itu nikmat Allah, jangan salah guna cukuplah..cinta pada orang yang cinta pada Allah. Tetapi cinta sebenarnya ialah pada Yang Maha Esa, pada Rasul-Nya, pada Islam dan pada al-Quran serta As-sunnah kerana itulah cinta sejati, cinta yang lahir dari hati.

I never finish the comics since I lost all the first sketch & storyboards of the story but the memories remain.

RM60000: Education or Business?

I don't know if this a relevant question but I would like to know what do you people think about it. RM60,000 is a lot of money & you know it. But which you will prefer to go for, further study or start your own business? Give an opinion on how you see it. You can add something to.

Education:

• For RM60000, you could go for Degree in Engineering, Paramedic Courses, MBBS & etc
• Get the result in 4-7 years
• Get 5-4 digit salary after you have a job (it could be "if"depends on the economics)

Business:

• For RM60000, you could open up a Cybercafe (10 PCs or your on farm (vegetables, goat & etc)
• get result in 1.5 - 2 years depend on your own work rate
  
• Maybe get 5-4 digit income in a month (depends on the market)

When I was tidying my laptop I came across with two albums
My favorites country band is Matthew & The Mandarins.Hahaha.
Matthew & the Mandarins is one of the most popular country and western group in Singapore. Two of their greatest hits were Singapore Cowboy and Let's Put The Sing In Singapore, both original compositions by Matthew Tan and Bristow Hopper. But I like the Singapore Cowboy more. If you listen to his voice, you never expected that he's a Chineese guy
" I was born half the world from Nashville Tennesse "

Another one is Ron Goodwin & His Orchestra



This is my favorite instrumental album by Ron Goodwin & His Orchestra from the album called "Music for An Arabian Night...Nice cover eh?
Originally this is from my father old vinyl record that was copy to a cd to my laptop.
My favourites song is The Moon & I, very soft & soothing song to listen & relaxing your mind

Keroncong....

As I was doing my homework's, I feel that I need to have some musics with it. There's a lot of song inside my PC but I decided to go for streaming the radio. Then I remember somethin' that I used to do with my father that I started when I was in form 3. Anybody know about "keroncong"? Not many people are attracted to "keroncong " music. Yes, I like keroncong just like my father like it. I love to listen to keroncong on Best 104 radio station that started everyday from 10pm to 2am. How to get the "feel" when listening to keroncong? simple, have a cup of hot coffee/nescafe, feel the midnight breeze & listen to the song. If you got a rocking chair, that's wonderful. Hehe....
I forgot to mention my favourite keroncong song is "Bengawan Solo" & "Di Bawah Sinar Bulan Purnama"

Manchester United is the champions of Premier League! Glory Glory Man Utd! After an agonizing draw against Arsenal at Old Trafford , Manchester United retain the Premier League title for the 3rd season in row. Even I was disappointing with the result nevertheless Manchester United still the champion of England. An interview with Sir Alex Ferguson after the match

Sir Alex: Now we go for 19

Sir Alex Ferguson was naturally delighted after claiming the 11th title of his remarkable tenure at Old Trafford - and the club's 18th overall. Here's the transcript of his first interview following the final whistle against Arsenal...

How nervy was that?
It was the longest ninety minutes in history. But we got there. There was only one save made in the match, by Edwin van der Sar with five minutes left. That tells you it was a cautious match.

Does the fact this title draws you level with Liverpool make it more special?
It will make it more special if we get in front of them. We want to progress with this team which they’re capable of doing. Next year we’re going to go for it again.

When you arrived here, you were 11 titles behind them. Can you believe you’re now level?
They were the greatest side in the land at the time. We built slowly but I never thought we could get eleven titles. Never in a million years. My main aim was to win one. Win the first one and see where it took us and of course we progressed so quickly after that.

Just how good is this current side of yours?
Oh, it’s a great side, a really great side and a great squad. I could have picked two teams today. Unfortunately I had to leave good players out like Scholes, Berbatov and Anderson. It’s not easy.

When Carlos Tevez came off, it looked like an emotional farewell. It looked like he was almost crying in the dug-out. If that indicates what this club means to him, that might be a good sign for you?
It is a good sign, it’s what we all want to hear. The boy knows we want him to stay. I thought he tired late on but he was playing on his own up front and it’s not easy. We needed a bit of freshness there so there was nothing in it (his substitution) other than that.

When you look back, was there a defining moment of the season for you?
I think against Stoke, at Stoke. Winning that game late on after coming back from Japan was a big challenge to us, a big test and we came through it. That was a great result for us.

How strong was Liverpool’s challenge?
Very good. Their players have done well. They won 4-1 here which was a travesty of a result because I didn’t think it was a 4-1 result. Nonetheless they got great impetus from that. I know it’s hard to defend a 4-1 defeat but I actually thought we played quote well in the game. But there you are, we lost four goals to long kicks, long passes and we didn’t recover, we lost the next game. That gave Liverpool the scent and they took the scent and credit to them as they battled away.

You’ve got a day off tomorrow, so are you going on a spying mission to Mallorca?
No, we’ve got the Player of the Year do tomorrow at Old Trafford so I can’t go. I would love to have gone but my brother will be there (watching Barcelona).

When it’s like this, how can you even contemplate contemplating retirement?
I’m not contemplating, definitely not contemplating. I’ll carry on and I’m going top stay as a manager. My health will tell me when to quit.

The way it is right now, that could easily be for another five years – is that fair?
Let’s pray. Let’s hope my health’s this good in five years.